Thursday, April 17, 2014


It has become apparent to us that Jonas has an imaginary friend named Luke - which we think may look like a friend he used to have but now is a part of his every day decision making.

They don't play cars or run around the backyard together BUT man O man - Luke is quite influential in Jonas' life.

Especially when he gets in trouble.

"Well, Luke said that I could take an ice-cream cone and eat it in the laundry room on top of your freshly cleaned duvet cover, mommy..."


"well, Luke said to listen to my heart and not my brain."

It's really hard to not laugh because he is dead serious.

This kid... seriously!

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Love Wins!

I have this new favorite singer/songwriter named, Ellie Holcomb. Her lyrics are deep and true and absolutely life-giving. I have found her music to be such a comfort to me during this season of life.

She has this song called, "Love Never Fails"

Every time I hear this song I come away thinking about Philippians 2. Then I feel this enormous weight on my chest because I suck at loving people this way....

But then... I think about this God who sent his son to die. I think about this son who obeyed and laid himself down. I think about the fact that my failure to love is hidden in His wounds and each day, as I strive to know him more and make him great in my life - each day as I lay down what little I can...

He completes and multiplies my work - as feeble and small as it is.

So this great heaviness is then transformed into feathers as I marvel on the gospel and all that it has done for my very dark and sad heart.

I am not perfect at loving others. BUT Christ is and HE is absolutely mine!
This admonishment in Philippians 2 is not meant to lead me to despair but instead to drive me to the cross. There I can find hope and rest in the fact that he not only saved me then - but is saving me still! 

Brilliant news!

"So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves.  Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a Servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by vbecoming obedient to the point of death,weven death on a cross. Therefore God has zhighly exalted him and bestowed on him athe name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus bevery knee should bow, cin heaven and on earth and under the earth, 11 and devery tongue confess that Jesus Christ is eLord, to the glory of God the Father".


 ------And on a sidenote ------
{Surprise Grandparents!! }
(these photos are for you because you are so awesome and so LOVED by us :) 

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Johnny Cash And A Tuesday Adventure

We've been gone a while. I know. BUT I think we are back.
Really. Truly. Back.

And tonight. Ahh tonight! 

Reminded me of all the things we are about as a family. Tonight, I was brought back to our youthful days of parenting where simplicity and togetherness reigned supreme.  

It was so good AND so needed. 

And the best part.... These little reminders have been slowly yet consistently finding us - each moment knitting itself into the soul of our family. 

So, onto this evenings events. 

This is Mr. Tom. He drove all the way up to the Panhandle to help us move. Somehow, that little journey bonded us and we call him dear. 


This is part of Mr. Tom's land.

Tonight, we explored Tom's amazing land - which has been in his family since 1904.

Georgia was on a rock mission which led her to absolute giddiness! 

And the weeds were absolutely lovely. I love these flowering plants. They are wild and free yet delicate and so beautiful!

And Jonas.... We finally found a context in which he could roam wild without consequence... For the most part.... 

Kate just wanted to run and search for shells.

Jeff and I.... we like simple - it does our family good!
The End.

Thursday, December 12, 2013

By God's Grace.

I seriously love the men and women who teach my kids - and I am so grateful for all of the ways they pour themselves into educating and protecting them each day.

These ladies and gentlemen work so hard.

And you know, it was a rough transition. Not just for my kids, but for me as well. Some weeks I still feel that tension - am I doing the right thing? Are my kids going to rebel and take up sexting and drinking vodka out of water bottles during snack time...

Will I lose them in the violent sea of peer pressure......

Like I said, some weeks I flip out a little.

But, most weeks, I just smile and feel grateful for our school system. She is not perfect by any stretch of the imagination however, she is producing in my children a drive to work hard, to be honest, thoughtful, smart.

To understand authority better. To navigate hurt feelings. To grow in self-control, patience. To feel sin rise up in their little heart toward a classmate and then watch as the Spirit leads them to fight it. To figure out ways to take the gospel into a place which is closed and to stand up for that gospel when many don't want to. And SO much more!

My kids are getting tough. 

My kids are standing up. 


And by God's grace, my kids are making an impression on this place

And that makes me happy happy happy.

We are in the fields. 
Learning. Praying. Waiting. Watching. Listening

And by God's grace, we will make much of His name here.

happy. happy. happy.

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

The Mysterious Journey

On the day of my mom's memorial someone came up to me and said, "Do you think when you go home you'll be able to stop being fake?"

I looked up at her and just stared into her callous eyes.

Fake?... I thought to myself. 

Fake....? This time I screamed it in my head.

I gathered my self mentally and replied with a gracious answer and then quickly left.

That conversation stuck with me the whole night though and left me with another question.

How am I supposed to respond to my mother dying? What should I feel and how should I let those feelings out?

You know, I do not know the answer. In fact, I am not sure we can ever truly know the answer to such questions because the pain is so deep, so out of our control, that our responses follow suit.  

Grief is a mysterious journey. 

I had a lot of control while I was back home with my family - caring for and dealing with my mother's passing. That was the emotion I felt. Control. 

On the day of her memorial I felt a lot of joy as my mind feasted on her new reality.

Now that I am home, I cannot look at photos of her because of the pain it causes me.

Next week - who knows..

Grief is not something we can measure, calculate, or judge in others. We simply walk it out and try our best to honor God with the little bit of strength we have in the moment.

In a world that demands understanding and instant relief, I know this may not be an acceptable reality

But for me, it is perfect.

I hurt, everyday- in different ways - everyday. I trust God in this place and am seeking to daily honor him through obedience in the midst of this suffering. I don't understand a lot - like why am I obsessed with cleaning all of our bedding in hot water every week?....OR why does the taste of iced coffee make me want to throw up suddenly... OR Why do I peel a potato and burst out into tears?... Or a million other types of mysterious behaviors I have adopted over the last few months..

I don't understand. 

So, I get really still and quiet and wait on the one who understands all things. He is my comfort and help and his word is my lamp and guide.

Some call it fake.....

I call it wise.

The end. 

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Georgia Evangeline

I am feeling so incredible blessed - beyond measure - by this lady.

She is my daughter.

I look at her daily and still can't understand why on earth I would get to journey with such a lovely creature. 

The purity of her heart, her soft and gentle nature, immense desire to care for and help others, her joy and passion, her love of justice and quest for honesty...

watch out ya'll...

world changer status.

and one humbled mom.


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