December 19, 2010

Nice to meet you Sir Henry, I'm your mama! June 13, 2008

Tonight as Henry bent over to pick something up I looked at his little naked back and for some reason my mind jumped back to the moment when I first saw him in my womb. He turned his back to us and Jeff and I could see his entire spine. Each little tiny vertebrae, from his pelvis to his head, was completely formed and perfect. Jump forward to the present - my eyes were looking at the same little boney structure.

I felt sort of in awe that we made him and that he was alive, breathing, and healthy. I remembered all of the moments before my eyes first saw him, all the kicking, moving, and hiccups - the moment when he broke my water in Old Navy, signaling it was time to be born - and once again - awe came over me.

Then I thanked the Lord for that precious little thought because the last few months with our dear Henry have been sort of rough. I rarely make it through a day without telling him to stop, don't, get down, be kind, leave your sister alone, shhh, listen and obey bud - about a billion times a day.

My heart was softened at the thought of that moment though and this difficult season of training turned into me looking at God's miraculous handiwork! My mind was just wowed by God's work and the faithfulness he showed in giving us such a strong healthy boy. I was reminded that the same faithful God is equipping us as parents and sustaining us as we strive to be consistent with our boy.

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I felt encouraged

I felt in love

I felt honored to be on this journey with Henry and to be hand picked by God to be his mama.

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It was a cool moment!