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Long time no see!

2012-01-29T16:36:00.000-08:00

So I have been thinking of a lot of things I want to talk about lately....

Just in time for our internet to stop working, ha!

Yes, this entire week we have been without internet. And well, although it is just a phone call away to have it mended, my man has been under the weather and getting connected to the world hasn't been the greatest priority. So, hopefully soon....

So, here's the run down this past week:

Henry cut his pinky toe pretty bad on Thursday and refuses to wear shoes.

Jonas had RSV and was a wheezing machine but is doing 100% better thanks to God giving us modern medicine.

Georgia is gone all day at school and I hate it. I am struggling to adjust to this new adventure for her and feel incredibly disconnected to her. I am praying lots and waiting and watching for how the Father leads in this.

Jeff has been sick all week and spent Thursday-Today in bed (mostly) I cannot imagine what being a single parent is like and am grateful that he will soon join me in raising our children because I am pretty sure I would screw them up pretty bad without him.

We are getting to know the students here more and more each week and are really loving it.

Today we were "pounded" by the church and it was fabulous. What is pounding you might ask.... well, they bought us a lot of groceries, presents for Kate, and took a love offering.

We were overwhelmed and completely humbled. Which leads me to my next point:

The people here in this town have quickly invaded my heart and have set up shop. I love them dearly and each time we get to be with them we are encouraged and reminded of how deep the father's love is for us in giving us them!

Life is busy, the work here is immense, and I have looked forward to waking up for the third week in a row - amazing!

It feels so good to do what our hearts long to do.

AND....... for the cream!

The updated I-171h form that we needed to get for Kate (homestudy update) was processed in less than a week even with a slight mailing hiccup! AMAZING! We hope to hear this week what our next step is. Last week they only wanted the phone number for the police officer who found her - they received that number just after the request was made. We are hoping they clear us for travel this week but we will see. It's tricky remember!

cheers and have a great week!

The Tour: Where the wild things sleep.

2012-01-22T14:17:00.000-08:00

The painters have been here all week painting the inside of our house. Although they aren't quite done, they did complete the kid's room. I have to say - this may just be my favorite room I've made up so far and... gray is my new best color! I want it everywhere!

Here are the details in photos:

Jeff's Aunt Nancy gave us these awesome national geographic maps for our garage sale. We couldn't part with them though! We sort of have a map obsession. On the flip side of the map side there are photos and a nice little write up on that particular part of the country! They made for some great art!

Deep breathing

2012-01-20T18:21:00.000-08:00

This is a picture of my sons.

They have conspired together to be horrible and the bond they have forged is strong. Today is Friday and I'm thinking that if I have to endure one more day of them being this way I could explode...

And Jeff was even home today handling a ton.

He looks like he did explode - he's in the garage using power tools as a way to recover.

I am not sure we have ever been here before - having a child that will not bend to our will - so we are learning a lot. And being humbled in the process. Tonight as we left the basketball game - full of everyone we know - Jonas threw his body back while Jeff was holding him and began to scream at the top of his lungs.... Jeff just smiled and looked like he wanted to die.

I walked faster and looked down.

So, there you go. That is my blog for the day. I hope you've enjoyed it.

Cheers.

Adoption update

2012-01-18T12:50:00.000-08:00

This morning we opened up our email box and found the greatest thing!

AN EMAIL FROM THE US EMBASSY!

We are not cleared for travel just yet, but in five days we can call and check on our case. They have received all of her paperwork and are reviewing her case.

So basically, we are just waiting for them to either say, "come and get your daughter", or, "we've scheduled an interview for this day with the person who found her" - at which point, we will likely be cleared to travel the day of that interview.

We're talking like three weeks or so folks!

Now, that is not set in stone. This process is so tricky... Something could go wrong or after the interview they could require more documents and we would have to wait longer. But, so far - so good!

Oh my! I am a huge ball of anxiety this afternoon! So excited!

We covet your prayers. We've still got some money to raise and our new home study is in the process of being submitted to USCIS for approval. Two small things that could delay us further.

Man, we are so excited!

2012-01-16T10:57:00.000-08:00

I think I am blogged out.

No pictures or stories. Just completely uninterested in blogging. It's been four years now - I was wondering when I would hit this wall.

I think I have finally hit it.

So, yah. Here is a list of my top five favorite things about Jeff because I am always interested in that topic. Cheers!

1. He is clever

2. He constantly downplays his ability to do things from sports to music and then, when the rubber hits the road - he is the best.

3. He is patient.

4. He is an excellent teacher and very knowledgeable about everything which of course he will downplay :)

5. His love for us is fierce. It makes me feel safe always.

December 19, 2010

2012-01-15T09:00:00.000-08:00

Nice to meet you Sir Henry, I'm your mama! June 13, 2008

Tonight as Henry bent over to pick something up I looked at his little naked back and for some reason my mind jumped back to the moment when I first saw him in my womb. He turned his back to us and Jeff and I could see his entire spine. Each little tiny vertebrae, from his pelvis to his head, was completely formed and perfect. Jump forward to the present - my eyes were looking at the same little boney structure.

I felt sort of in awe that we made him and that he was alive, breathing, and healthy. I remembered all of the moments before my eyes first saw him, all the kicking, moving, and hiccups - the moment when he broke my water in Old Navy, signaling it was time to be born - and once again - awe came over me.

Then I thanked the Lord for that precious little thought because the last few months with our dear Henry have been sort of rough. I rarely make it through a day without telling him to stop, don't, get down, be kind, leave your sister alone, shhh, listen and obey bud - about a billion times a day.

My heart was softened at the thought of that moment though and this difficult season of training turned into me looking at God's miraculous handiwork! My mind was just wowed by God's work and the faithfulness he showed in giving us such a strong healthy boy. I was reminded that the same faithful God is equipping us as parents and sustaining us as we strive to be consistent with our boy.

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I felt encouraged

I felt in love

I felt honored to be on this journey with Henry and to be hand picked by God to be his mama.

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It was a cool moment!

Texas

2012-01-13T19:57:00.000-08:00

Life in Texas.

Is busy (in a way different way than L.A or Louisville)

Is full

Is exciting

Is growing my family in some seriously good ways.

Is deepening my faith

Is reminding me that I worship a God who listens and hears the cries of our heart and answers us.

With that said, I am overjoyed to be here and have been so humbled by God's plan for us here. The fields are large and the seeds are in our hands. We are seeking the father and leaning on his word as to how to go about planting..... The work here is more like a marathon - not a sprint.

In fact, sprinting isn't really done here :) Ha! Just today we got a note in our mailbox (which is attached to the house) telling us we needed a mailbox near the street ( 33 feet away) and that until we get one, they were going to hold our mail at the post office. The note was dated for yesterday yet they've been keeping our mail at the post office for the last ten days and haven't come to pick up the mail that has been sitting there for the last three days....

HA!

So, Jeff installed his first mail box straight away! He placed the post so far down into the ground that no bat could ever knock that thing down!!! (but, if you are one of our youth kids don't be tempted to try - Jeff is the King of comebacks!)

A new town.

A new church.

A new job.

A new schedule.

A new school.

New Friends.

A new baby soon.

The same God who showers us with his steadfast love and lights our way with his beautiful word.

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We are truly delighting in him.

November 16, 2010

2012-01-13T09:00:00.000-08:00

Glad to see my girl is such an effective teacher!

November 23, 2010

2012-01-11T09:00:00.000-08:00

He comes from the land of punk where he reigns as King until his brother Jonas becomes mobil. His favorite past time is pestering his big sister Georgia - his main goal - get her to cry, run, and hide. All of her anger is building up though, just this week she went into him with her claws and scratched him up pretty bad. His love for her is deep though. As she sat in the bathroom crying from the discipline I handed her, he only wanted to hold her and say, "it's ok Georgia!" As she hugged him and asked for forgiveness he looked at her and said sorry back... His tender little punk heart couldn't take seeing her cry.

He constantly surprises me.

Take this situation for example:

I had no idea potty training would go so well. He is fully potty trained - even when we go out! I put a diaper on him at bed time - but he still comes down to pee a few times before giving in to his pillow. This is the surprise of the year - more surprising than texas and even more surprising than my mother's day gift.... ha! Just kidding not sure anything in life will be more surprising than those two little events!

He is becoming more and more manly in case you didn't know.

After many days of begging for a gun, Jeff gave in and built him a gun out of closet rod, wood, and painters tape. (we call it the poor man's gun :) He is quite serious about defending us from bad guys like Darth Vador! Oh, Darth.... Henry is obsessed. OBSESSED with Darth Vador and all things Star Wars. Just tonight we had a fight at the table. His come back name..... "No, you'reDarth Vador!!"

Obsessed!

Each day he is slowly showing me how delightful the land of Punk truly is. I am so glad to have the actual King residing in my home. Not sure everyone shares my enthusiasm all the time - but she'll warm up to him and in turn teach Jones to feel the same ;)

April 13, 2010

2012-01-09T09:00:00.000-08:00

Gee-ma-knee we looked young!

Found this little jewel in the Iphoto library. This was in Dec 03 I think. It was a happy engagement/house warming/yea Jeff graduated college party. We Marshmans are an efficient breed you know!

Loved that purple house, loved that red thrift store shirt, loved those hollister jeans, loved that rock on my finger.

But loved loved loved, in the truest sense of the word, that man I was holding onto. Skinny bones and all!

and yes, I am that short in comparison to Jeff. When standing bare foot I barely come up to his shoulder. He says he likes that... I tell him, well good because I am only going to get shorter! and as an extra bonus... wider :)

I love my Jeff Marshman!

October 20, 2009

2012-01-07T09:00:00.000-08:00

I am convinced...

completely...

that staying home with our kids is the best thing I have ever done or will do in my life!

And thankfully, the Lord has been faithful in providing all that we need as a family to maintain that conviction. and thankfully, I have a husband who may just value me staying home more than I do and would move heaven and earth to keep our lives as they are now: me, staying home with our kids.

Why am I convinced completely that staying home with our kids is the best career I will ever have in my life?

reason #1 and the only reason I will share because I want to keep this post as lite as possible:

we dream about our day and make it exactly how we dream it should be. We wake up, eat breakfast on the floor like kitties - take a walk through the park - play monster - bake a cake that looks like a giant dinosaur - make a fancy lunch because we are wearing our fancy wear and then, off to naps..... Whatever we think up - we can do!

the coolest job I tell ya!

and in six months the party is just gonna get better! Well- I am going to add three more months to that number because the first three months are not so fun - they're hard...

So, nine more months and we will put our fancy wear on and party like it's 1999!

July 28, 2009

2012-01-05T09:00:00.000-08:00

gird ( up) one's loins. prepare and strengthen oneself for what is to come.

February 12, 2009

2012-01-03T09:00:00.000-08:00

It took a lot to get these shots today! They didn't come without a price, that's fo show! I tallied it up and here's what I got:

82 weeks of discomfort, a combined weight gain of 100lb, stretched, torn, and beaten skin, hours upon hours of sleepless nights, hours upon hours of the worst pain of my life, vacations missed, parties missed, knowing the Dr. on a first name basis, a severe loss of coolness, and the feeling that I am always forgetting something.... But, upon looking at these photos.....

I realized that I would gladly pay it all again, and Lord willing, I will. Motherhood, parenthood really, is completely fantastic, terrifyingly hard, and glorious all in the same breath.

December 3, 2008

2012-01-01T09:00:00.000-08:00

It is days like today; days when my house is not only chaotic with wild children running around, (or in Henry's case rolling), but also chaotic with messes everywhere. Days when I am exhausted and unmotivated, days when Jeff is not feeling well, days when patience, love, and understanding swing in the balance. It is days like this that I have to remember to do a few things:

Pray. Stop and ask the Lord to calm my anxious heart, to give me grace toward my family, and toproclaim that HE is my portion and my rock.

Realize that a clean house is not more important than loving on my children and playing with them. AND a clean house is not more important than being kind to them as well... a messy house tends to leave me a bit moody.

Put myself last and see the needs of my husband. He works hard, he is tired, he does not feel well, how can I serve him today amidst the chaos? (note to self: be loving rachel and remember how you feel when you are sick!!)

Put on music and sing. I don't need an explanation for this... It has an amazing effect on me and I cherish it.

Hold this in my heart today:

"Rejoice in the Lord always, again I will say rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with THANKSGIVING let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus!"Philippians 4:4-7

It's not all going to get done today, and it never will really, but in the midst of the hardships I or even you may face today, know that it is our relationship with Christ and then our families that are the most important. Applying the fruits of the spirit to each other; love, joy, peace,PATIENCE, kindness, gentleness, and self-control, (I think I got them all in there?) as well as leaning on the strength and peace that only come from walking close to Christ are key!

Have a great Wednesday! I know I am trying haha!

November 18, 2008

2011-12-30T09:00:00.000-08:00

"I want some BBQ punk!"... - Georgia

"What have I created?..." Rachel instantly thought.

March 1, 2009

2011-12-28T09:00:00.000-08:00

We have a little saying in our house..

It goes something like this:

J or R: "Georgia, is this a good family?'...

G: "Yes!"

J or R: with fervor exclaim,"NO!" this is not a good family!" (as if she were in trouble for saying yes.)

G: (giggling and squirming with a smile as big as the ocean), yells out, "This is agreat family!"

You gotta teach em' young folks! you gotta teach em' young!

Friends

2011-12-26T23:18:00.000-08:00

*** This is the outfit I had to change into just before we left ET... It's no fun peeing your pants when you get to laughing so hard - thanks Jeff for leaving that sheep meat under Jay's pillow! ***

These are our new friends, Jay and Amy. They sent us this picture via email today and we thought it was great. They are also good friends with our good friends, The Giddens'.... Word on the street is that Jay and Tory grew up together and well, after spending five seconds with Jay we could have been fooled into thinking that Jay was Tory.....

What a small world we live in eh?...

When we discovered that we sort of knew each other through the Giddens' it made it even more amazing when we discovered that the little baby laying next to Kate in the first photos we received was going to be their daughter.... And then, when we were scheduled for court on the same day as them, well, we were blown away even more. Seems like the four of us are sort of destined to be friends and after our trip we are just so grateful to have met them and look forward to growing closer to them in the future.

Such incredible people!

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We are set to pack all of our earthly belongings onto a truck on Wednesday and head out of town shortly after so blogging is going to be on the back burner for a bit. I may post from the road but it all depends on how much fun we're having ;) Who wants to read a post about how I almost jumped out the van just to escape the sounds of Jonas screaming for the 8th hour..... I will be doing a bit of reposting and hope to resume my post by the end of January. So yah... I guess this is sort of a blogcation and I am saying goodbye.

Wish me luck ya'll!

Cheers.

The Story of Ethiopia in Photos

2011-12-22T07:23:00.000-08:00

We put this slide show up on Jeff's Facebook page but some of you are not connected to us in that way so - here it is. We've been home a week now and man, we miss her. I'd get right back on the plane today if I could, and that's saying a lot!

Portraits from Ethiopia

2011-12-20T09:11:00.000-08:00

We were so amazed at the diversity in Addis Ababa. We encountered people from all walks of life - from poor beggars on the street, to merchants and college students. It was really odd to me but at the same time, made me really love the place. I am so proud of where our daughter is from and cannot wait to tell her all about the adventure we had there.

Here are some portraits Jeff took around the city. This was like the highlight of his life by the way. I wish you could have seen him - 6'4 tall, huge smile, giant camera around his neck - asking people in english if he could take their photo.... It was pretty awesome and ridiculous all at the same time. I think Jeff and I stumbled upon a new passion in Ethiopia -- capturing the world - their faces and stories.... It will be neat to see what God does with this in the future.

The Story of Ethiopia Part 3

2011-12-19T22:46:00.000-08:00

Tuesday morning was a big morning for us. We were all ready long before 8am. We sat around waiting with our paperwork in hand for our 8:30 ride to court. We arrived at court 5 minutes early (which was plenty of time in Ethiopia) and waited for about an hour for our lawyers name to be called. While we waited we noticed that some of the people waiting for the judge were actually Ethiopian mothers who were meeting with the judge to give up their children. We realized so clearly in that moment that we were celebrating the greatest tragedy of someone’s life and we became very sober.

The four couples from our agency all walked into the Judges office with passports in hand. We sat down around the perimeter of the room and waited for the judge to acknowledge us. She called out, “Hewan’s parents?” We raised our hands. “Millet’s parents?” - and so on. She then asked us about 6 yes or no questions. We all answered yes to each of them as a group. “Do you have biological children?” “Yes.” “Do your children know about this adoption?” “Yes.” “Since you decided to adopt have you learned more about Ethiopian culture?” Yes. “Have you met other families who have adopted from Ethiopia?” “Yes.” “Are you preparing for the upcoming identity crisis that your child will face?” “Yes.” “Do you understand that once this decision is made it is permanent and cannot be reversed?” “Yes.” She then told one family that they needed to jump through one small and easy hoop before they pass court and announced that the rest of us passed court! We passed court! In the eyes of Ethiopia (and the US I think), Kate is legally ours!

Next we went back to our lawyer's office and went over our embassy paperwork and went through the files of the newly adopted children one by one. We found out that Kate is from village just outside of Nazaret. She was abandoned at a church and taken to a nearby hospital. The other families learned more than we did because their girls had more info in the file. It was fascinating and heartbreaking to hear all of what they had been through in their short lives. After about an hour of looking through everyone’s case, we went to Kaldis (Ethiopian Starbucks) for coffee and lunch and then back to the guest house. When we arrived we learned that the house was going to buy a sheep and some coca-cola for a feast that evening. Rachel, Isaac, and I went with Howie out to a few shops in the town to buy some Ethiopian gifts for our family and us. When we got back we were sad to learn that we missed the killing (beheading) of the sheep. We will share the story of dinner in another post because the hilarity that ensued is too good to tack onto the end of this post.

As dinner was beginning we had to do the most difficult thing we have ever done. We took our new daughter, who was fast asleep in Rachel’s arms, back to the nannies because in just a few short hours we had to catch a plane back to the US. She did not even stir as we kissed her forehead and said goodbye. As our tears fell onto her precious face, we prayed for God to keep her safe and to bring us back together again quickly. The next phase of this process is sort of hazy in terms of timetables, it could be weeks or it could be many months, no one knows. She is loved there which brings a lot of comfort to us, but she is also ours and lives on the other side of the world. It is so hard to think about it, But God knows. And God cares. And we trust him. After all, he has brought us this far and is always concerned with our good.

That night after dinner we drove to the airport and flew home. At one point Rachel buried her head in her jacket and just cried. We both didn’t expect to bond to her so quickly – leaving her felt like someone stabbed us in the chest and forced us to breath – it just seemed impossible.

Rachel and I are so amazed that God would give us this little girl and know that he will continue to work everything out just as he has done up to this point. We have great trust and hope in his incredible power and love. And rejoice greatly that God decided to give us such an amazing daughter! We cannot wait to pour into her!

The Story of Ethiopia Part 2

2011-12-18T06:04:00.000-08:00

Monday was a joy-filled day. We woke up and put Kate under the blankets with us in bed. As long as she was near Rachel she was content. That morning our new good friends, the Wrights, arrived and we had the pleasure to watch and record them meeting their daughter. After meeting Jay and Amy and talking for a bit, Isaac and I went out to photograph and take video of Addis Ababa with Howie our Ethiopian friend and Zen (Basazen) our driver. Rachel spent the morning with Kate at the House.

When Isaac and I got back Rachel took a nap forcing Kate and I to hang out alone. This was the turning point in our young relationship. Kate began to warm up to me and after a couple of hours was content to even look at me without crying. Just after Rachel woke up our Ethiopian lawyer Dereje dropped by our guesthouse to discuss our court case that was scheduled for the next morning. We all asked him every question we could think of and he assured us that court should go smoothly. We were still very anxious.

That night we all left our little ones with the nannies and went to dinner at Aladdin. The restaurant looked as amazing as the food tasted. Not sure if it was the nerves from our impending court appearance or the giddiness we all felt from being in Africa with our kids, but we laughed so much! Our meal cost about $100 for 10 of us to eat a feast. I love Ethiopia……

here is a video from that dinner.... Poor Isaac couldn't convince anyone to try his yogurt meat....Can't imagine why?.

The Story of Ethiopia Part 1

2011-12-17T16:11:00.000-08:00

We spent just three short days in Ethiopia and it literally changed our lives. We built deep friendships with the other families who were staying with us and also adopting children through our agency, and fell in love with the culture and the people of Addis Ababa. As for meeting Kate - our heart was instantly tied to her. We were surprised to have fallen in love with her so fast. It was the best three days and in some ways, the hardest three days we have ever experienced together. Let me try to tell some of the story:

We arrived on Sunday morning after flying all night from Rome. An airport full of chaos met us. We were incredibly intimidated yet so curious as we tried to navigate our next move. After paying a girl to use her cell phone, we got a hold of our guesthouse and had the owner of the house pick us up. Kate just so happened to be staying at this guesthouse due to the transition house being flooded with kids awaiting embassy appointments. I must add here that we brought a friend named Isaac to film the trip (some video will be coming in a few weeks). He has such an incredible talent for capturing life so we thought it would be of great value to our family to bring him along for the ride! He entered the house first to check out things and get ready for our first meeting. Our stomachs turned with nerves, this moment was so unreal! Her nanny came out to meet us – in her arms was this little chubby baby girl. She was smaller than we imagined her. She held on to her nanny tight as we reached out to take her. These nannies have become like mothers to her so you can imagine what she must have felt to have these two strangers grabbing for her – not to mention we have bright white skin! Kate squirmed and cried and reached back for her nanny who turned and left the room. Kate had nowhere to go so she buried her head into Rachel’s chest and cuddled her tight. It was not 8 minutes before the trauma of this first meeting sent Kate fast asleep in Rachel’s arms. She was so overwhelmed by the exchange that she shut down and went to sleep. When she woke up nearly an hour later she let Rachel feed her a bottle and care for her.

Whenever Kate would notice that it was still Rachel holding her, she would cry for a moment but was quickly soothed as Rachel rocked her back and forth in the room. She had to be held close against Rachel's chest and Rachel had to move slow or she would freak out. And forget about laying her down on her back.... That sent her over the edge. Every time she saw me she cried. Being male and 6'4 wasn't the best combo for wooing a baby. Sunday was spent learning Kate and asking the nannies a million questions through out interpreter. We brought her some classic Marshman toys and watched her curiosity explode as she interacted with them. We kept her close and never let her more than a few inches from us. By the end of the day she was becoming more comfortable with Rachel, though she still never smiled (unless she saw her nanny) and she still couldn’t look at me without crying. She slept in our room that first night and did better than we had expected. After Rachel rocked her to sleep she laid her in her crib and she slept the whole night - waking up at 4 for a bottle and going right back to sleep.

It was a good first day. It was beyond what we had hoped and it taught us that because of Christ we have a capacity to love that is far greater than we are aware........

The story of Rome.

2011-12-16T21:51:00.000-08:00

There is one thing I am certain of these days - my promise to follow Jeff to the moon is seriously being tested as he somehow seems to get us closer and closer to touching it.... I'm not scared though because if he is there then everything will be alright!

Here is the story of Rome:

Kate Part 2

2011-12-15T15:46:00.000-08:00

Here are some favorites we got of her.... Ahh!!! We are just in complete shock that she is really ours. God is so good!

Kate

2011-12-15T00:09:00.000-08:00

How do you even begin to tell a story of this magnitude?..

Jeff and I have been thinking through it for last 36 hours as we have traveled home. It is just beyond anything I could have ever imagined.

We are going to take the next couple of weeks to work through it on here. We've got a ton of media - my goodness! So, if you're not so keen on hearing the story, check back some time in January....

Greetings from Ethiopia!

2011-12-11T10:18:00.001-08:00

Tonight, as Jeff gathered an entire restaurant staff around him - cooks included - and had them all laughing over something while he took their photo - I realized that I am experiencing the most incredible moments of my life.

I am so glad Jeff drug me here!

Even though I nearly lost my life in a taxi in Rome... Have you ever driven with an Italian?.... Take all that passion you hear in their language combined with their reactionary disposition and give them an autombile... So many near misses. Oh my goodness!

Cheers!

Court is Tuesday, please be in prayer for us - we need to pass court.

Bon Voyage!

2011-12-07T22:04:00.000-08:00

It is 10:06.PM

I have to clean up my house.

Put laundry away --> it's literally everywhere at the moment.

Do the dishes.

bring order to the three foot high pile of crap Jeff pulled from our van.

recheck our luggage and make sure I didn't forget anything.

Get papers in order for my parents for the kids.

pack photo gear....

Bag twenty cans of formula and pack

Because, at 5:30AM we leave for the airport.

It's going to be a long night I think and an even longer day.

My eye is on the prize and I am breathing slow... just walking it out as Jeff would encourage me to do.

Keep us in your thoughts and prayers. We really need to pass court on Tuesday! Although it won't bring Kate home, it will get the ball rolling.

Cheers!

Rae.

Making plans.

2011-12-05T20:03:00.001-08:00

I don't have a lot to say these days. I am sort of in do mode. Packing, organizing, making plans to move again.... This sort of lifestyle squashes my soul a little bit and leaves me feeling frazzled all the time. Like, "I can't find my keys, I can't find my keys, I can't find my keys.... Oh, they're clipped to my purse on my shoulder...." kind of feeling.

It's quite sad. But, I know it's only for a season. AND in the end, Lord willing, I will not only have a beautiful new daughter, but a new home and community to learn and love as well.

I tend to escape a little more often when I am going through this kind of season. I think it's my way of dealing with the particular stress I've been feeling concerning our 16+ hour airplane ride, leaving my children for 8 days, and not knowing how we will be received by Kate when we pick her up for three days. . I simply put on some headphones, close my eyes, and let the music swirl around in my mind. I pick apart all of the parts of the song and try desperately to memorize all of the details. I get lost and I love it.

It's my favorite way to listen.

Jeff bought me a couple new albums this past week to chew on. He did quite well! This particular song blew me away. I listened to it on repeat for a while so that I could properly hear it. They make writing a song look completely effortless when in reality, they are delivering the most complex masterpiece. Their chemistry vocally is something to mention as well - it possesses an intense power to draw you in and make you feel like you're experiencing the most treasured of secrets. I can't get enough of their music and am feeling quite bummed that they are playing in Louisville on January 13th at the Brown - a favorite spot to see bands play!!! Seriously!

Where have I been...

2011-12-02T11:10:00.000-08:00

We are just a week away from our lives completely being transformed. Knowledge is such a powerful weapon - bitter & sweet as it plummets you to the ground.

This trip is going to be so bitter-sweet.

I am afraid for my soft-fragile heart and how it will respond to such intense poverty and a home full of beautiful children who have been left without a mother and a father. It's crazy to think that something so normal to us - having a parent - is a luxury to them and to so many others around the world and in our own country. And even crazier, that so many of us live our lives without thinking of how we can step in and take up that role. We have created such a small selfish world for ourselves it makes me so angry. I too, am guilty of this. It is my earnest prayer to be a person who is broken for the good of others. I am so selfish my goodness, motherhood has been and continues to be the means to the end I desire so greatly. I am broken, beaten, and torn apart each day and it is beautiful. Especially because of the one who holds me up and comforts me throughout each day.

Instant Love.

2011-11-29T10:24:00.000-08:00

Let's be honest Monday.

2011-11-28T20:15:00.000-08:00

My boys are really putting me through the ringer lately. Is that the right expression?... I never get them right.

And while I know that God has given them this beautiful spirit - full of energy, determination, aggression, and drive - When I am not at my mental and physical best it simply overwhelms me.

On Sunday I hid behind my sewing machine for most of the day.

Today however, I did not have that luxury - I had to engage the animals who have taken over my once precious baby boys.

And when I awoke around 6 this morning to the sound of Henry outside getting into the van, I knew it was going to be a fun day, especially when he had brownie all over his face (we left in there from the night before)

I fell asleep on the couch around noon and just about fell into Jeff's arms when he got home a short while after. I was babbling about a million miles a minute about our sons being demons with great plans to wreck havoc on society.... He just smiled, took a couple of glasses with ice + dr. P, and sat outside in the sun with me - real close.

I calmed down.

And now I am thinking that God is so wise - giving us incredible partners in this thing called parenting - or should I say life.

And my partner in this life....

There are no words to describe all that he is to me.

"Hey Mom," she said -

2011-11-27T20:08:00.000-08:00

"I have decided that I no longer want my name to be Georgia....

Instead, I would prefer to be called, Adventure.

Yah... I think that's the kind of girl I am."

(oh the beauty of the 70-200! nothing like it!)

A Black Friday Message

2011-11-25T13:14:00.000-08:00

I remember when I first heard Katie Davis' story. I was sitting in my car listening to Dennis Preger - he was interviewing her. I sat there, with the engine off, and wept. I couldn't control my tears. Even still, every time I hear her speak and tell of the work that God is doing in Uganda I weep. Part of it is pure conviction. I am so wrapped up in the cares of this world - in having more and more stuff - of creating a kingdom for myself here on this earth instead of building into the kingdom of God..... Part of it is longing. My heart aches to have this kind of faith.... And part of it is hope - hope that God would put this kind of heart in my children and they would live radically for the kingdom, just like Katie.

Seeing that it is black Friday and we are all obsessed with consuming, I thought I would share. I pray you would be greatly encouraged and challenged to rethink the way you spend your resources. I know I was this morning. Enjoy.

Gobble Gobble

2011-11-23T21:26:00.000-08:00

Introducing my wigwam.

She had a Thanksgiving feast on Tuesday - complete with a little song and dance for the parents.

She had a quick bout of stage fright

But pulled herself together and swayed back and forth to the melody. & totally rocked that wigwam headdress!

And posed for pictures with grandma and Mrs. Skelly - the best kindergarden teacher on the planet!

All this feasting led me to:

Reason # 1,427 why I love this school business -

little people dressed as pilgrims and indians feasting together.

pillows

2011-11-22T17:58:00.000-08:00

I made my first ever pillow today. It's for our couch and I think it is fabulous! Almost as fabulous as instagram!

Now, I can add pillows to my sewing repertoire.

Top 5 For Monday

2011-11-22T11:22:00.000-08:00

1. Playing with the christmas train all morning with Henry --> who just so happened to be Sargent Marshman whose main mission was keeping Jonas from destroying it....

2. Watching Georgia devour ten chicken nuggets and then go for a hamburger.. That's my girl!

3. Finding the most beautiful fabric for my new casa - yellow & white chevron stripes!

4. Picking up my grandma and taking her to see Breaking Dawn..... She's votes Team Edward!

5. Coming home late last night and discovering this little present on the desk - charged, loaded with apps I would enjoy, and ready to go. Love my boyfriend - my goodness! Big thanks to our little town in Texas for not having Sprint coverage = new cell phone carrier + new phones = a long awaited desire met! Everyone goes home happy!

Thoughts on Breaking Dawn..... Poorly done, way cheesy, and a little agitated that there were little kids in the theatre. Enough said. Time with my mom and grandma - excellent!

Cheers happy Tuesday.

What's in my ears

2011-11-21T12:32:00.000-08:00

I've had this song on repeat since I heard it last week. And John Mark McMillan....

He's a fantastic writer - offering such a unique approach to creating worship songs. And the depth... The lyrics really draw you in - I love that.

In a market saturated with poor theology and a lack of creative ingenuity, I find him to be completely refreshing and inspiring. Enjoy.

Fabric Art

2011-11-20T09:25:00.000-08:00

I had an old canvas with a picture I did not fancy so well.

So, I remade it over with some fabric I bought at Ikea. It's amazing what you can do with a little spray adhesive, I still need to stretch and staple the edges though - my handyman is at church..... (I am home with a snotty little Jones.)

This will go in Kate's room.

Kate's room!!!

Oh my goodness, I can't believe this is even going to happen - I am still awestruck when I think about it.

****

Speaking of Kate's room... Do you know I found everything for her room on craigslist! A beautiful crib, a vintage dresser, and the pottery barn bedding I really wanted but could not afford!

Craigslist!

It's going to be such a lovely little room!

The loveliest girl there ever was

2011-11-18T20:16:00.000-08:00

went to a fancy movie party at the theatre in town. She dazzled us all in her new Christmas dress - Even her brother was a bit awe struck...

Jeff is looking into buying a gun. Lot's of guns.....

shouldn't be a problem in Texas!

Do. Don't Feel.

2011-11-18T09:46:00.000-08:00

Many times throughout my day, I wish I was not so much a feeler and more of a doer.

But, I am a feeler. To the core. I've come a long way - thanks to God tying me to a doer of a man - but still - I struggle. And yes, some of my struggle can be equated to laziness, and the fact that cleaning a house, and telling my son to listen to me a billion times a day - isn't exactly what I call a good time... So I feel. And feel. And feel. And hide in the comfort that comes from doing what I want to do, instead of just doing what needs to be done, being done with it, and in the process alleviating a ton of stress.

It's quite a slope I am stuck on these days.

So what I am going to do today.... Well, I am listening to Bon Iver and blogging of course :)

I'll start cleaning soon.... I promise.

But... I must say, some headphones and my iTunes library on shuffle sounds pretty good right now!

When life throws you lemons

2011-11-15T08:36:00.001-08:00

In the form of.... messing up your travel plans, giving you a baby who is throwing up and sick, and nerves that could send you to the moon and back there is only one thing to do.....

You lay down in a soft and comfy bed and praise God for his incredible provision for you. That even though you missed your flight and are stuck in a random city with your small children and no luggage, car, or food - he makes a way and provides for you.

He gives you a warm bed to sleep in. A car to get you where you need to go. Food in your belly to keep you going, and a mind to fight the inconveniences around you with joy and thanksgiving - thus translating to your children.......

- causing them to see this little hiccup as a great adventure as well. Instead of grumbling you boast about God's incredible care and with that heart, they see him as a great hero.

And those nerves..... When they come flooding in, you sit next to your husband and pray for him. You remind him of God's incredible faithfulness and wisdom - his ability to give you exactly what you need at the precise moment you need it.

You wait - quietly - and watch God make himself great in the midst of your fear.

And then you gather your family together and rejoice over what God did - once again He is the great hero.

And when it's all over, you stand by your husband - with the beautiful children you had the privilege to make with him - and you feel a joy so deep, because, you see so clearly how God has given your husband one of the greatest desires of his heart!

When life throws you lemons - you make much of Christ and watch how he turns your fears, trials, and unexpected delays into the most glorious of moments.

He is so good!

Whirlwind!

2011-11-14T14:49:00.000-08:00

We've had the craziest weekend! It started in L.A then on to Denver - where we ran a quarter of a mile to make our connecting flight (with the trio+carry-ons in tow) Only to miss it, scramble for two hours and then run back the way we came so that we could make a flight to Oklahoma City where we rented a car, got to a hotel around 1Am, woke up, drove three hours to Texas for a BBQ. Then, Jeff preached, we sang, they voted, and....

We got the job! Jeff is going to be the new family and youth pastor.

We nervously walked down to the front and shook the hands of our new church family. It was quite the weekend.

We are just thrilled to have this opportunity and look forward to growing with everyone there.

I've got some more pics from the weekend and more details but this is the gist of it... I seriously never thought I would be leaving So Cal again - especially this soon - but God has not only opened the door for us to be here, he has given us great peace as well.

And, seeing my husband so full of life was quite an experience. After about eight years of planning, dreaming, going to school, working his butt off at Target and photography to provide for his family - it's going to be so beautiful to see him in this new role. - my goodness!

We are hoping to move sometime after Christmas.

My Refuge

2011-11-11T07:17:00.000-08:00

I woke up this morning not feeling very well. Nausea-achiness and a stuffed nose. But more than not physically feeling well, my soul was longing for something as well.

I woke up longing so greatly to be near the Lord. And this ache seemed so much greater than the physical one I was feeling. To have his word pounding in my head - telling me of all he is and has done - to be surrounded by his strength and power.

And this song.... Headphones on so that the words can penetrate deep into my mind. He is so beautiful, my goodness.

And my refuge today -

So much so that I found myself praying this:

"Nevertheless, I am continually with you;

you hold my right hand.

You guide me with your counsel,

and afterward you will receive me to glory.

Whom have I in heaven but you?

And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.

My flesh and my heart may fail,

but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

For behold, those who are far from you shall perish;

you put an end to everyone who is unfaithful to you.

But for me it is good to be near God;

I have made the Lord God my refuge,

that I may tell of all your works." Psalm 73:25 ESV

Travel update

2011-11-09T13:06:00.000-08:00

So we are pretty much useless at this point in our life. I caught this image of Roger from 101 dalmations in my head - you know the scene when Pegerty is about to give birth to the puppies and he and Pongo are a complete mess, pacing up and down the room - dazing wild into the unknown....

That is us, except are not awaiting the arrival of puppies, we are awaiting the departure of our trip to Africa.

Africa.

I am going to Africa in four weeks.

Four weeks...

We are so out of heads right now over all of this that we just can't focus and do anything productive. We just sort of sit around and say things like, "Oh my goodness this is really happening!" Meanwhile the dishes pile up, the laundry makes it's way onto the living room floor, and the mile long list of things to get done around here starts to accumulate dust.

We are just out our minds right now.

Yesterday, we did manage to nail everything down though. We have the incredible opportunity to take along a new friend with us named Isaac. He is the visionary behind, Mawwiage Films and if you may remember the incredible wedding video he shot of our brother Randy and his wife Megan - yah, he's amazing. Well, he also has a huge passion for orphan care and wants to come along. We are overjoyed to have him with us.

And, it just keeps getting better. In many of the pics of Kate there is another little girl laying next to her. Her name will be Hadassah and she will join the Wright family. They are friends of our dear friends the Giddens' - are you still tracking with me?... Well, we just so happen to have the same court date as them so we are not only going to finally meet, our girls are going to grow up close to one another as well! From crib buddies to life buddies! It's just too amazing.

And.... Another couple in our church have a court date for their two boys the same week as well! They are adopting two boys ages 6&8. They are also going to visit some orphanages while they are there and take them some supplies. One particular orphanage is for children with aids. There is a high possibility that we are going to get to travel with them as well to that orphanage on the Monday just before our court date.

Rome got cut short by a day so that we would have more time on the ground in Addis.

Sorry if this is an incoherent mess. I am an incoherent mess. On top of all of this, we are headed back to Texas this week for Jeff to preach in view of a call. We are also going to lead some music as well and visit with a lot of families in the church. - The whole crew is coming this time and if you remember, pray for my Jo Bug - he is the least adaptable kid we've made so this weekend is sort of his worst nightmare!

Oh life! We are overflowing with it right now and are just blown away by it all!

p.s we are going to take infant formal over to Ethiopia with us. They have a great need for it right now due to the amount of kids that are in the transition house waiting for embassy appointments. They are stretched incredibly thin at this moment with their resources and are asking for families who have court dates to bring as much as the can! Formula is not something than can get easily. So, if you would like to help us in this please e mail me at raemarshman@gmail.com so that we can arrange a pick-up or feel free to donate to our paypal account under the adoption tab at the top - we will go out and purchase the formal with the money you donate.

Overflowing I tell ya, Overflowing!

Boots

2011-11-08T12:23:00.000-08:00

Henry needed some dress shoes. But, I wanted something a bit rugged, after all, he's a man boy not a mama's boy ;) So I found these at Target and the red laces sent me to the moon.

Iif I would have known that he would soon want to spend every waking minute in these ridiculous shoes, I may not have bought them.

Or that he would opt to stomp every where he went instead of walk.....

Or jump around and pounce on things like wolverine while we are out and about running errands... His constant motion making me a nervous wreck!

Or, tracking mud. dirt. sand. and all things boy wherever he goes.

Yah, probably would not have purchased them

At least they photograph well, right! - He is one tough bubba.

Downtown Disney

2011-11-06T14:57:00.000-08:00

I've got this little book in my mind. It houses all of the little moments that are truly great. Last night went into that book.

We enjoyed our children so very much. We laughed. and laughed. and laughed some more. No one did anything extraordinary - we just had dinner together at the Rainforest Cafe and walked around Downtown Disney. We were together, and it was so cool.

they had this live Big Band playing.... AHHH! I really did almost burst. (did you know there was a season in my life where all I did was swing dance? I'm talking the full get up, vintage shops, dance clubs, lot's of friends, every week?.... Best time ever!)

I will never forget my sweet Georgia girl in her little red coat and felt hat - dancing all over the place with her brother. So good. This all led me to one little question --> how on earth do I get to be a part of this?..

My moment of lust, we went into a fossil store which just so happens to be a favorite.

My Epic Saturday

2011-11-05T22:15:00.000-07:00

I am pretty sure today was some sort of epic-amazing-sparkly kind of day. And I totally didn't foresee how cool is was actually going to be until about 7PM when I was walking around at down town Disney - or should I say floating along....

It started with a slow morning. donuts. Jeff home :)

Then a playdate/birthday party - which was sort of a big deal. Georgia was the only girl invited - it was a lego playmate for a little boy in her class - she chose to wear her fairy outfit at which point I said, awesome - with a fairy bucket full of her wand, fairy coloring pages, and her little sewing box. Could it get any more awesome?...

Yes!

At one point I was surrounded by four other parents. They were asking me about Kate.... Why are we adopting.... Are we crazy.... ohhh. ahhhh.... how many kids do you already have.. how are you going to handle four... etc.

Then it came out - it just came out. And it sounded broken and a bit nervous, but desperate and hopeful all at the same time.

I opened my mouth and let the beautiful words of the gospel pour out into the room. I told them all about how Christ has given me so much. He died on the cross to pay for my sins. He died on the cross so that I could have life. He took my life -which was destined for death - and brought me into his family and because of this beautiful truth, we have been compelled to take this little girl - who was left on the street to die - and bring her into our home and give her life, a future, hope....

Christ has compelled us through his work on the cross to do this.

As I spoke I could see one lady's eyes start to tear up and at that moment, I started to tear up.

She touched my hands and just looked at me. I looked back at her and went on...

And I know that this is going to have its challenges and be difficult but, If I've learned anything in my life - following after Christ - it's that he will equip me in every place he sets my feet. I have seen him be so faithful to me and my family - so near, that I cannot wait to see how he cares for us in this as well!

And though I do think the mom of the birthday boy is a believer, the others may have totally thought I was this young woman who is absolutely crazy (I was at least ten years younger than all of them) No one asked questions or wanted to know more - but who knows what God will do with those beautiful gospel seeds. I felt so grateful for Kate as I drove home from the party. God is using her life to embolden me - to put a real-life tangible face to the story of Christ and his work on the cross. I know that I am no different than her - in the same state before Christ came and called me his, but her story is so much more vivid than mine, thus piercing my heart so much deeper.

****

I love the gospel. I love meeting new people. I loved today.

Loved. Today!

Bad day gone good

2011-11-03T10:18:00.000-07:00

This is Henry.

He woke up in a fury this morning - heart beating loudly, mind racing towards all things grumpy.

And then, the whining set in.

Oh, the whining.

So, I did the only thing I knew to do. I put on his favorite song and watched quietly as he transformed from Smashing Pumpkins' bullet with butterfly wings to Elton John's tiny dancer - it was pretty awesome.

His foot started tapping on the floor and his pursed lips started to curl up as if the music were breaking into his body to steal away his bad mood.

The air guitar came out and at once, his body skyrocketed into the cold air of our house like a wolf attacking its prey. He did this for several minutes until all of a sudden, without warning, he came back down to earth and froze right in front of me.

His mouth started to open and as it did, I could hear the faintest sound of a song...

"Dun dun dun dun dun duuuun dun." He was singing out the guitar lead as best he could but the giggles were making it nearly impossible to sing, laugh, and breath at the same time. It was hilarious.

The song ended and he joyfully chanted for more.

I stood back feeling quite pleased with myself for reminding him that he is three and that there is absolutely nothing in his life worth having a bad mood over.

Except maybe the song ending.

But then again, there is always the repeat button.

Cowgirl Ruby and the gang

2011-11-01T19:51:00.000-07:00

We enjoyed our first year of tricky treating - as Henry called it. I wasn't such a fan of the really scary stuff or the ladies dressed like whores.... can I say that on here? Well, I did... Other than that, I must say the night felt a bit magical. I love Redlands, my goodness. They shut the whole neighborhood down, went all out on decorations, handed out candy, toys, and books, and had the high school orchestra playing. Wow.

Here's some pics I got from the night. Jonas was not a fan of halloween. He sat like a deer caught in head lights all night - I just couldn't get him out of this weird mood the whole night. He did love his little orange bucket that Nana got him. He kept holding it our for her to put more candy in it. And yes, he is holding a gun. Apparently he is that kind of fireman.

We met up with some cousins while we were there and shared some pizza together.

Growing Up!

2011-10-31T21:34:00.000-07:00

I felt like these photos thrust me into a portal that allowed me to see these two in about twelve years. Seriously scary! I do love watching them get bigger. And more clever. Oh, they are so clever and it is so so so fascinating.

Stay tuned for tomorrow where I share with you the magic that took place in South side Redlands on Halloween night! It simply confirmed for me that Redlands truly is one of the best little towns on earth!

Be still my soul

2011-10-31T10:25:00.000-07:00

I heard the most lovely words in a song this morning:

Be still my soul, the Lord is on your side."

At once I was filled with great joy. The thought that the maker of the universe was on my side. My side. This came as a great encouragement to me because lately I been engaged in quite a battle with anxiety and fear.

It seems as though my upcoming travel plans are a bit beyond my comfort level.

The Lord in his sweet mercy, has been gently reminding me of the truth and with that knowledge my weak spirit is slowly and steadily being transformed by his strength.

His word has truly been a light into my dark and fearful heart. I was reading Matthew 10 and was suddenly faced with the fact that He is the only one I am to fear - the one who is able to destroy both body and soul. And although Matthew 10 is talking more about not fearing man in terms of sharing the good news of Christ, I was brought down to my knees by the thought that nothing can separate me from his care that even in the very hour of my death - he will equip me with all that I need to endure. AND further,

death cannot hold me down. I am the king's kid and with that inheritance, I will live forever -with him.

Pain, sorrow, death, persecution - all these things are a part of this world because it is fallen and trapped in sin. As Christ followers, we should not seek to escape these things, but embrace them, trust the Father, and long for heaven.

I saw so clearly how I have made my own preservation an idol in my heart - my life, my comfort, my desires - higher than God's call.

I was so convicted to say the least.

I love living. I love being a mother and a wife. I love so many things in this world. But I love Christ more. I am not sure what tomorrow will bring but I am sure that I am his and he is mine and well, I am resting my soul on that and trusting that he is moving things along in my life for his glory and my good.

The Lord is on my side!

Sick days

2011-10-29T21:38:00.000-07:00

Georgia has been sick this week - the usual - cough - fever - breathing treatments every four hours - routine.... So she's been home from school.

To celebrate her sickness, we laid down and drew ourselves on old wrapping paper and then decorated each other with marker and pet shop stickers.

Henry insisted on making his pants red - which made his drawing look like a chalk outline of a guy who was brutally beaten in the legs.

Georgia had to wear a dress. I must say, I was pretty impressed with the accessorizing that took place - she even added a belt to her dress.

I love that this kind of stuff is woven deep into the fabric of our family. And that they are getting to a place in their minds where they are now coming up with the art projects and asking me to join in.... Such sweet fruit!

Fall

2011-10-28T08:35:00.000-07:00

I am not so good at decorating for the seasons. My mother on the other hand, is very good at it -so good that she actually has bins in her garage labeled for each season. I think part of my problem is that decorating for each season isn't exactly in the budget and if it were, I'd rather spend the money on something else..... So there is my excuse.

I did however find these pumpkins at the grocery store on the cheap. I used them for Jeff's birthday. And it just so happens to be fall - the season dedicated to these lovely little gourds, so, I am going to call this decorating for the seasons.

Aren't you so proud mom!

The Birthday Recap

2011-10-27T10:38:00.000-07:00

The set up comprised of my most favorite colors in the whole world!

The passing of the cowboy hat - 20 Beaver just in case you were wondering.

The cowboy stud

The baby stud

encouraging the birthday man.

singing happy birthday to you at the top of our lungs & blowing out the candles!

The grateful wife.

A glimpse into my head today.

2011-10-27T10:23:00.000-07:00

packing for Kate. :)

"I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks."

Yes. It's true. Every time I think about it I almost throw up. Seriously.

Jonas was in utero when we started this whole adventure and it never really seemed real - now we have a meet date, December 13th. While I am over the moon excited to meet our little lady I am over the moon nauseous about traveling to see her.

"Just walk Rae..." That's what he tells me whenever I am struggling like this. I've grown to sort of love-hate the phrase.

I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks. I'm going to Africa in 8 weeks.

Oh my goodness!

Thirty

2011-10-25T20:58:00.000-07:00

You turned 30 today.

We celebrated as low key as possible just as you requested. Although, I did have to make it fancy - - it was your 30th!

Seeing you laugh and enjoy the family, the kind words that everyone shared, and realizing that your life has greatly impacted us all - made me want to burst with joy.

And in the words of Henry, your biggest fan - "I sure do love you!"

Happy birthday stud - let's celebrate at least 60 more together!

Rae.

The Adventure Begins.....

2011-10-23T15:45:00.000-07:00

On Wednesday Jeff and I kissed our little chicks good-bye and then boarded an airplane bound for Texas. We sort of didn't know what to expect. Both of us went to high schools that had two times the amount of people as the town we were set to visit and quite possibly call home.....

All this to say, we were moving forward cautiously - praying for clarity.

To say we received a great deal of clarity while there would be an understatement. By day two we felt like we were home. The people were incredible, the work inspiring, and the chance to grow - astounding. We had received the peace we were so desperately seeking from the Lord.

So, in a few weeks we will go back with the whole crew and Jeff will preach, the church will vote, and Lord willing, we will accept their offer to be the youth and family pastor.

Did I mention that our very dear friends, The Giddens' are the head pastors there?

Did I mention that this sweet little lady met us at the house with a homemade pecan pie and ice cream?

Did I mention that we are going to get to train up and teach families how to lead their homes for the glory of God? Or get alongside the youth and teach them how to live boldly for the kingdom? Or lead music on Sundays? Or set up some great programs for the kids there - train and teach the teachers and leaders, and dream and build with our dear friends at the same time?.....

It's seriously such a cool opportunity and a huge answer to prayer. And although Texas was most certainly not on our radar, we are humbled and overjoyed at the chance to serve the people there.

And once again, I am reminded of his incredible faithfulness to my family! The last 8 months here in California have been incredible - a huge answer to my prayers for rest. Now, I see him answering our prayers again - to build into his bride, the church. He is holding us fast and leading us along and we sense his grace at every turn.

We will keep you posted.

Observing my boys

2011-10-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I spent a good chunk of the day observing my boys in the backyard. I have to say, it was pretty entertaining. I sat quiet like a little mouse and laughed uncontrollably in my head. When Jeff came home and joined me in watching, he didn't think it was as funny. He thought it was all pretty standard male behavior...

Like Jonas giving me this mad dog face for fun - totally normal.

Or obsessing over the dump trucks being lined up and ready to roll - normal.

And brotherly teaching moments turning into a disaster - yep, normal.

feeling completely annoyed at me for taking photos of him - a definite staple of boyhood.

Rolling around in dirt all day, wiping snot on their shirts, eating rocks, leaves, and all things resembling a round shape - a standard for all boys.

And the competitions.... OH MY GOODNESS! The competitions Henry sets up for Jo Bro and himself - designed with one thing in mind.....

Leaving his little brother in the dust.

Totally. Completely. 100% normal.

And as Jeff proudly looked out at his boys today - in all of their manly glory

I really did feel like I was on another planet. A hilarious planet, but totally, completely, 100% not normal!

Brothers

2011-10-17T11:16:00.000-07:00

Through and through

And even though they are a little scrappy these days, when the rubber hits the road - it's only love.

News

2011-10-16T20:41:00.000-07:00

Love

Him.

Especially when he quietly informs me about the cycles of the moon so that I don't look like a complete idiot in front of people.

And because he always knows what to do.

And because he always thinks ahead, plans, strategies, dreams...

and because he pushes me to be better, to take risks, to hope always, and to relax.

I am totally the type of person who needs someone to push them toward these things.

He lights up my heart and is my very favorite and best friend. And.

He has another adventure in store for us.

Can't wait to share about it.

On another day.

***

me: Jeff, I think everyone thinks we're crazy!"

Jeff: "yah, I know, isn't it great!"

Seasons

2011-10-14T05:28:00.000-07:00

If I look back over our short life together, one thing stands out. Each place we live in is marked by something.

In Redlands, our life was marked by walking around the U of R, hot days, and waiting for Georgia to be born.

In the condo, (Kentucky) our lives were marked by watching the big trees off of our deck, exploring the parks, and making barn houses for those toy animals from Target.

In the Kentucky house, all I can think of is snow, snotty noses, baking, and dance parties.

Wow. We move a lot.....

Well, here in L.A I will remember swinging in the evenings just before dinner. I will remember kids laughing so hard that it almost sounds like they are crying and Henry, begging us to swing him higher than he already is going. Little does he know that in about two seconds he could quite possibly soar into space.

This time in our life will be marked by this backyard. that swing set. and being together a lot. I can't help but see God's incredible faithfulness to me as I see this as well. My prayers in 2010 were marked by one request: That the Lord would lead us into a season of rest. He has overwhelmed us with his answer. I have to tell you though, I have a sneaking suspicion that this little season of rest will soon come to an end. But, more on that later.....

Happy Friday, I hope you have a good one. We are heading east for the weekend, as in, Palm Springs. We have a wedding to shoot. It's been a while since we got to shoot together, I am really looking forward to it.

Dear Kate: Letter Three

2011-10-10T22:48:00.000-07:00

Last week we got to Skype with you. WOW! It was nearly 1 AM here while it was ten AM your time. You were so happy, my goodness. We had butterflies in our stomachs as we watched you on the screen and must have seemed like complete morons because we were just speechless looking wide eyed at this baby on the computer screen . All we could do was smile and watch you. It felt miraculous to be connected to you all the way across the world.

I could hear the sounds of people speaking in a language I had never heard and could see the business of young girls all around you. That was super fun to experience.

And you.... Already a Marshman! we are so blown away by your disposition. It reminds us that God had ordained this from the beginning - you being a part of our family.

After we hung up I thanked your dad for his great faith and leadership. I was so scared in the beginning-but now I see the beauty and privilege it is to call you my daughter. The Lord is using you already to teach me about the enormity of his heart and its endless ability to love.

Because of his love for me Kate I am endlessly in love with you and I cannot wait to tell you about this every day of our life together.

Love. Mama.

The Pocket Skirt

2011-10-10T08:37:00.000-07:00

I made Georgia another skirt this weekend from some left over Ikea fabric. This time I added a pocket just for kicks!

It's far from perfect - but perfect for her.

I am slowly turning into a sewing addict. I am not so skilled, but man, my heart is large! Can't wait to see what I turn out in a year. 365 more days of making crappy skirts has to bear some sort of great fruit! Who knows, I may even be able to read an actual pattern and not feel like I am reading chinese!

6.2 Satuday Night

2011-10-09T14:40:00.000-07:00

Saturday evening we headed to Huntington for a treasure hunt/bonfire with some family. This is the day where I ate so much sugar I nearly threw up. Enjoy.

6.1 - Friday Night

2011-10-09T14:32:00.000-07:00

Friday night Georgia had all of her friends from school over for an outdoor movie party. We had a few technical difficulties, like losing the movie and the DVD player not working but thanks to Gramma and Papa everything was made right!

After this weekend - I think we are all pretty partied out! But oh man, it was fun!

Completed.

2011-10-08T23:15:00.000-07:00

Well, she is six....

Feeling a bit mixed about it all but mostly glad. I even thought about her falling in love today.

Whew! She loves deep, that guy is going to be over the moon lucky! If Jeff lets him live of course!

Love love love this little lady. Will have all the little details for ya monday.

"Am I really six today?.... Oh my goodness"

2011-10-07T13:13:00.000-07:00

Georgia, you are six today.

You are my first born child who not only decided to be born 8 days late but also took an entire day + three hours of pushing before you decided to enter the world. You have a rhythm that doesn't always sync up with the rest of the world!

You were stunning right from the jump - complete with a perfect rosebud mouth. All the nurses came by our room and commented on your beauty. What they didn't know - what we all didn't know - was that your outward beauty was just a small reflection of the beauty that would grow inside of you. The way you care for people, the way you stand up for what's right, the way you love to learn and explore, your boldness and courage, the way you are thoughtful, the way you seek to love your family - the stories & songs that effortlessly come out of your mind - this makes you absolutely stunning!

With tears in my eyes I thank God for you. You bring the color into our grey little home!

I love you to the moon lady!

San Pedro with the Giddens'

2011-10-05T21:07:00.001-07:00

It was freezing but since this our new best place we had to brave it. And we had to have a dinner picnic because this is our favorite and best dinner picnic place.

It's a little hard to believe that we've got three more kids to add to these arms! Kedra's boys and our Kate! Woo!! And even crazier that when we first met, Kedra only had Abigail and Nathan and I had Georgia (henry was in utero) Praise God for blessing our families with these beautiful children!

It was such a treat to get to share our home with you all!

Thanks for making the trip.

Mother's Beach with the Giddens'

2011-10-05T20:42:00.000-07:00

So, on to this post: The Giddens came. They saw. We ran them ragged - eating fast food, exploring all of our favorite places - and consuming massive amounts of sugar. We even managed to squeeze in a movie at the theatre. Our eyes burned with exhaustion but we were determined to see a movie together.

Now it is Wednesday and they are gone. My children have done nothing but sleep. Guess that's what happens when you spend the entire weekend partying hard. Here are some pics from Mother's beach. We love this park and thought it was the perfect park for Abigail. She is quite the climber!

Oh my!

2011-10-05T10:07:00.000-07:00

I haven't been this excited in a while! Coldplay is my favorite band - I own every thing they've ever made - seen them a couple of times live - and cannot wait for this CD to be released.

And, this song knocks my socks off, it's incredible! Enjoy and Happy Wednesday.

Hannah Joy Giddens

2011-10-04T18:34:00.000-07:00

I finally got to meet the newest member of the Giddens family.

She is so sweet and quite a lover of music, exploration, and making noise with her tiny little voice.

Being with her these last few days has made us so incredibly excited about Kate! And hopeful that some day she will be waddling around our house loving music, exploring, and making noise with her tiny little voice. Thanks Kedra for letting us love on her this weekend!

Henry never really did get her name down. He kept calling her, "Kedra's baby Kate..." We'd hear things like, "Kedra, your baby Kate is about to get hurt..." or "Kedra, your baby Kate needs you.." I guess he thinks if your skin is black and your a baby, your name must be Kate.

We're working on expanding his world view. :)

Sweet Baby Jones

2011-10-04T00:19:00.000-07:00

I am pretty sure that when Jonas was born he broke off a big chunk of my heart and stuck it in his pocket.

And when he spends most of the day with his mouth wide open like this - letting giggles pour out into the air - I think that chunk lassoed the small part still left in my chest, and threw it into his other pocket.

He's sneaky like that.

So it made perfect sense for me to whisper in his ear tonight that he was in fact, my favorite child.

He doesn't need to know that I've whispered that to the other kids about a million times before, with the same depth and meaning.

I'm sneaky like that, what can I say.

Love you bud!

These are for Tory!

2011-10-02T19:49:00.000-07:00

It was epic man! Wish ya'll were here.

Signed - The Marshman-Giddens Crew

In a few short hours they will be here!

2011-09-30T22:21:00.000-07:00

Georgia and Abigail's first time hanging out together - May 26, 2008

A very nervous Georgia crept out of bed tonight with a very serious question...

"will Abigail still be the same and will she think journaling is cool?"

Her little eyes were seriously concerned! I looked back at her and said, "she'll have changed a little bit but she's still your very favorite and best friend and will probably LOVE journaling!" I could tell that Georgia ached to hear this kind of response because in an instant she looked up at me, giggled and sort of twirled at the same moment, and hopped back into bed because, "the faster you get to bed the sooner she will arrive!"

And this is what I love about friends. It most certainly hurts to part from them, but when you get back together it's like your bond is deeper! I think Georgia will be pleasantly surprised for sure! As for me..... I am going to hold that little Hannah for the first time, give AG a huge hug, and talk Kedra's ear off over a nice venti white mocha from Starbucks!

While overlooking the ocean of course because these Texans need some ocean!

Will have a full report next week!

P.S

OUR CASE WAS SUBMITTED TO COURT!!!!!!! Now we await a court date. Oh my! Just wanted to let you all know that God is hearing your prayers and to keep them coming! We are so close to meeting Kate I can't even believe it - it's so surreal!

Road Trip

2011-09-29T22:38:00.000-07:00

I need a road trip.

A long road trip to San Fran with just me, a handful of favorite CDs - starting with White Stripes and ending with Miles.

Coffee. Coffee. and more coffee.

And then once I am there, I will head straight for the pier. I will sit along the water and eat a bowl of soup inside an amazingly crispy - yet soft - bread bowl.

With a tall glass of iced tea.

Then, I will sit on a bench and people watch for a few hours.

One ice cream cone later and I am back on the road.

I just need to drive. Think & drive. Drink coffee. Think & drive. Drink coffee. Repeat.

Look what I made!

2011-09-29T10:06:00.000-07:00

After my tear-filled weekend of teaching myself to sew quite poorly, I decided to give it another whirl last night. My great desire to set the machine on fire was replaced with pure delight.

I must have loaded the bobbin right, I guess....

Because, in a little under an hour, I made this for Georgia. And it was good enough to wear to school.

YE-HAW!

And, I have a little fanny pack-treasure-bag in the works for Abbie G and Georgia girl's fun beach weekend. (georgia designed it on paper for me, I am merely following orders)

I must have really loaded that bobbin right!

Keeping up

2011-09-28T10:57:00.000-07:00

I am always one step behind in life. It wasn't until my junior year of college that I realized getting a B.A in theology and philosophy at a Southern Baptist University probably wouldn't afford me anything but a husband.... Which isn't that bad, but most certainly was not my intention.

This one step behind problem I have flows into all areas of my life. Not sure if I learn slower or if I just fail to see normal common things. In the words of Lola from, "Charlie and Lola," I live in Lola Land - so to speak.

So last night when we went to Georgia's back to school night and the teacher was going on and on about district standards and what the kids should be able to do and know I almost threw up.

I was so overwhelmed, to the point that I thought her teacher was speaking a completely different language. I brought Jeff thank God - he is never one step behind anything except for maybe music - I do have superior taste to him - hands down :)

I was just under the impression that kindergartners and well, children in general, were supposed to engage the world slowly and with great imagination. That's why we paint so much and explore the parks, and make yummy food together....

But then when she started to break down all that they do, combined with the homework each night and the standards they hold them to, my little idyllic heart felt faint. It is seriously rigorous! Georgia came into kindergarden scoring an 88 out of 90 on her assessment so she' s not behind - but keeping up and equipping her for what's ahead is seriously crazy. How on earth do kids do extracurricular things on top of school and have a strong family life???.... I think it is impossible.

Can't even imagine when I have this load x four kids. Whew! When I think about that I wonder how mom's and dads both work, manage the house, have kids in school, and have extra curricular activities to take everyone to.

No wonder divorce is so high and families are so broken - look at all that we are striving to do.

Like I said, one step behind. Seems like everyone around me is already walking at this pace of life.

I am still clinging to the hope that we can stroll along the beach every day looking for shells and meeting new friends.

I guess it't the hippie in me.

Henry days

2011-09-27T12:46:00.000-07:00

I am pretty sure that all that mother-son bonding that is supposed to take place in a young boy's life, is happening with Henry and me.

We seem to be peas and carrots these days and I am pretty sweet on this.

Our days are filled with lego cars, ping-pong rallies, smoothies, and mud-making. Having Georgia away at school and crazy-boy-Jones asleep has been the best thing for us - we have the whole morning to ourselves to make adventures.

I knew age three would be glorious!

And, I knew one day Henry would start to love me (maybe just a little bit more than Jeff ;)

Six

2011-09-25T14:32:00.001-07:00

My girl will be six years old next week.

six!

Gramma asked her what she wanted for her birthday. She replied, "Oh, just a nice note and some flowers!"

I blushed.

And quickly realized that I have successfully duplicated myself. And about one-second after that thought.....

I prayed for help. :)

She is lovely though - much-much-more lovely than I could ever be.

I will thank her father for that addition to her DNA because he is the loveliest person I have ever been around.

School

2011-09-23T13:48:00.000-07:00

The crew at the Louisville Zoo. March 2011

I thought about writing a funny blog today but when I realized this afternoon that the moms of Georgia's friends at school were actually snubbing me and it wasn't just a fluke - I lost all ability to be funny and instead just feel bummed.

Making new friends is hard - especially when you have nothing in common with everyone around you.

So tonight, in celebration of my complete rejection Jeff and I are going to the movies. And in case that doesn't quite numb the pain, in just two short weeks a very dear friend touches down at LAX for a beach adventure.

Yes folks, the Giddens'-Marshmans will be reunited - for a few days that is. ;)

With that said, do ya'll have any great beach spots I should share with my Texan friends? Getting pretty excited to take them to all of our favorite spots!

A letter of Thanks

2011-09-20T16:07:00.000-07:00

Sweet lips - Jonas. Summer 2011

This last month I have seen so clearly how God is taking my poverty and enriching it with great faith - great - big - over the universe - kind of faith.

Specifically with our adoption fundraising.

When Jeff came to me with a desire to adopt while I was a million months pregnant with Jonas I thought he was crazy. But, I went along with it, I do like adventures you know.

Then he told me how much it cost and I think I laughed.

It was as if an angel had appeared to me at the age of a hundred and said, you will soon be pregnant with a child... I just laughed so hard at the impossibility of raising $28,000 + dollars.

Well, let me just tell you, my once cynical laughter has been transformed into a laughter of praise because God is, and has done an amazing thing!

We've had friends ask for donations for us instead of birthday gifts, and old roommates from college who we haven't seen forever sending money, friends who, like us, don't have a lot of money yet send huge financial gifts to bring Kate home. We've had people drop stuff off at our door for us to sell, and talented women sending crafts for the craft fair, and family pulling together whatever kind of resources they have.... all to bring Kate home.

Little by little we are getting closer to that $28,000 goal I once thought was impossible. And the coolest thing I think is not that we are raising the money but that God is making himself great in our home and in our life and deepening our faith and trust in his power.

God is using the body to teach us about his very powerful and faithful nature.

We are so humbled,my goodness. And feel like we could literally move a mountain.

With that said, thank you for your continued support. Thank you for your fervent prayers. Thank you for being doers of the word and caring for orphans. Thank you for helping us give an orphan a home.

$15,000 down. $13,000 to go!

Sick little Jones

2011-09-19T16:00:00.000-07:00

He got quiet... I found him like this in the hallway. So sad!

****

This has been a doozy of a monday.

I had all these plans of waking up early & exercising & filling my hours with house work....

By 6:30 AM this morning it became quite clear to me that I wasn't going to do anything like that. Well, except laundry - I can't escape that little chore!

You see today I am sort of recovering from the sewing binge I went on this weekend. On Friday I decided that I was going to learn how to sew. So, I opened up the box, read the manual, spent three hours sorting out all the facets of the bobbin, nearly lost my salvation, made a bag, a pillowcase shirt, and went to bed at 2 AM.

Saturday I took a breather.

Sunday I spent the whole day making a skirt. And seriously rethinking this hobby thanks to that dreaded bobbin...

And now, Monday - I have returned to my family with very little interest in sewing any time soon. Gees - I don't know if I should set the machine on fire or press in?....

And my sweet baby Jones is sick. He woke up with an inflamed bottom and a febrile body - poor guy. He's seriously slept all day.

And in many ways, so have I....

No more sewing Rachel - gees.

****

HEy, did you know that if you went on over to Kate's Craft Fair and bought something - and then told a friend to go over to Kate's Craft Fair and buy something - and if everyone bought something - we'd raise another $200!

$200 closer to our goal.

Think about it.

Cheers!

Maybe tomorrow I'll get it together!

A Gift for Animal

2011-09-14T22:14:00.000-07:00

Fed Ex delivered Henry a gift today from his papa and nana. Once he figured out what it was he almost pooped his pants he was so excited.

And now, the whole neighborhood gets to share in his joy.

I have to admit - there is a striking resemblance, don't you think?....

And let's not forget our sweet baby Jones. He got in on the action as well.

Dinner and a show part two

2011-09-13T10:24:00.000-07:00

By far the highlight of our evening. Dress up clothes were flying all over the place as the trio put their heart and soul into entertaining us! I was one proud mama! And please note that my girl totally holds that guitar like a natural - both left and right handed!

Nana was feelin' it!

Act 1 from Rae Marshman on Vimeo.

Diinner and a show part one

2011-09-13T10:01:00.000-07:00

A few years ago I discovered a blog that has just blessed my heart. She is the most thoughtful and engaging mother and totally inspires me to be better at this job. Each school year she picks a theme for her kids and throws a party to celebrate the night before school starts. We started the tradition last year for our family and had such a blast - so this year, we invited our parents and brother and sister. Here's the dinner portion of our evening. OH man I can't wait to show you the show...... That's for tomorrow though.

Our theme for the year - Make every effort to grow! - 2 Peter 1:3-11

And Georgia chose the menu - hamburgers and cake - big surprise there!

First Day Jitters

2011-09-12T22:11:00.000-07:00

Jeff miraculously retrieved the photos from her first day of school and her back to school dinner. Turns out I am not so smart with the computer and didn't realize that our hard drive was full thus making it impossible to upload photos. He figured it out though and was the hero of the day!

Got a bunch more but here is my all-time favorite from the photos - it says so much!

Love this girl, my goodness.

Good Monday!

2011-09-12T09:57:00.000-07:00

Have I told you lately how much I love Georgia in school all morning?

Have I told you how much fun I am having with my boys while she is gone?

Have I told you how joyful she is and how much fun she has while she is away and how incredible her teacher is?

Have I told you how I get to spend each morning talking with other moms and building relationships with them?

Have I told you how much peace our new schedule has brought into our home?

Or the fact that I feel a million times lighter?

I did tell you. I know.

But,

It's monday and I wanted to tell you again because I absolutely love this new season of life we are in!

Jeffrey my handsome stud of a husband!

2011-09-10T19:50:00.000-07:00

This is my husband.

I adore him.

I would follow him to the moon.

I would jump on any train he was taking, fly to any country he wanted to visit, walk down any road he wanted to explore, and bike down any mountain he wanted to subdue....

I love him endlessly.

I find him deeply fascinating.

Hilarious. Clever. Strong. Wise. &. Loyal.

I would lay my life down for him and in many ways God has already allowed me to do this. I am so grateful because in laying my life down for this man, I have learned how to not only love, but live.

Dear Kate: Letter Two:

2011-09-09T14:41:00.000-07:00

The night I got engaged to your father. September 6, 2003

It has been quite the week around here my girl! 100 degree weather with no AC, back to school parties, kindergarden, a broken camera, the anniversary of my engagement to your dad, and three job opportunities for us that we are seeking the Lord about...

Big week!

You were never far from my mind. Especially as we drove around in the air conditioned car in an attempt to get everyone to sleep - I looked up Addis Ababa's weather to see what you were feeling.

Thick bolts of lightning ran across the screen of my phone. For a minute I was afraid for you - I didn't want you to be afraid of the storm. But then I realized that you are our girl and well, you would think it was absolutely thrilling and want so badly to stare out the widow at it. I prayed in that instant for your nanny to take you to the window and show you the big bolts as they lit up the sky. I also prayed that soon, I would get to tell you where those big bolts got their power from - the one who knit you together in the womb of your mother and kept you safe so that one day, you would travel across the world to join our family and become our dear Kate.

Oh how dear you are to us!

I also thought of you as we held our morning dance party, our weekly beach trip, while the trio played in a mud hole in the backyard - butt naked! I imagined your face bright with excitement as you ran around throwing mud at your brothers and sister.

I thought of you as I felt such tremendous joy in being a mother - your mother.

Sleep tight my sweet girl. I am working on a great song for bed time, I can't wait to hold you in my arms, rock you in the chair, and sing it to you each night.

Love, Mama.

First Day

2011-09-09T09:52:00.000-07:00

Georgia on her first day of school drawn in photoshop because our camera is busted!

We've got a new schedule around here in the Marshman house and I am quite fond of it.

I wake up around 5 and get my mind straight.

We eat and prep for the day.

We take Georgia girl to school at 8.

Henry and I do school around 9 while Jolly Jones sleeps.

We pick Georgia up around 11:30

Eat lunch at noon.

Nap.

Wake up with popsicles and a little dip in the kiddie pool followed by dinner, more play, baths, and bedtime.

I have to say, waking up at 5 is the key to all of this. I wish I would have implemented this discipline in the beginning of my mommy days. God's mercy is so on me this week as I strive with all my might to beat my body and make it my slave!

I love this. And I love that Georgia is enjoying school so much and that her teacher is fantastic and that we are meeting people who do not know Christ and that it has miraculously put us on a schedule and that has made me feel a billion times lighter in my heart and that I am getting all this quality time with Henry and that my kitchen is been consistently clean and that my mind has been full of the word and prayer.

Just More evidence of his mercy to me.

75/25

2011-09-07T13:10:00.000-07:00

(the one pic I got of G's back to school dinner)

I've spent about 75% of my life the last few months feeling frustrated.

Didn't know that about me?... Good. I've tried real hard to keep it to myself. BUT today as I tried to upload the photos from Georgia's first day of school and they were coming up as unreadable - just like the photos from her back to school dinner did last night - I wanted to just cry. I know it's just photos and there are a lot of other things going on in this world that are actually truly devastating.

All this to say, Our frequent camera problems are just adding to the little pile of frustrations that have been resting on my heart.

I read this this morning and it was such an encouragement to me. One day I think I will write this whole chapter out on one of our walls so that I can be reminded of the kind of life I want to lead - the kind of person I want to be.... And lucky for me, the fact that I feel one step behind always - does't really matter. I am hidden in Christ and will be kept there until the day we are face to face. So grateful for his grace, my goodness!

and grateful that at least the photos of the brownie castle Jeff built for Georgia were saved... Seriously, he is the most amazing father - it blows me away what he will do for his kids!

How deep the Father's Love!

2011-09-05T11:05:00.001-07:00

This is a first for us. It's a little rough and most certainly NOT perfect... But, we have been so impacted by this song the last few weeks we wanted to share.

Hope you have a great monday. * Love the Marshmans *

Dear Kate: A weekly letter to my daughter

2011-09-02T16:56:00.000-07:00

Today I laid in the backyard and looked up at this tree. For a while I thought the tree was dead and then one day out of the blue I noticed pink blooms. Huh! I was reminded that God can take something that is dead and breath the most beautiful life into it. I was reminded of my life and heart. I feel a vibrancy in my soul that I haven't felt in a while and I am certain it is the work of his spirit in me - making me new and breathing life into the places that seemed dead and empty. It's just amazing.

And you know, He is using you in so many ways to bring about this change. The more we learn of you - the more we see you - the more in awe we are of his power and perfection and as a result - feel his breath breathing fast upon us - awakening us.

You are more lovely than we could have ever imagined

my heart breaks over the pain your birth mother must have felt as she looked into your face and knew she could not keep you. She thought you would die helpless on the road -

But my sweet girl, like our tree in the back yard that was once left for dead but suddenly erupted with beautiful pink flowers - like my heart which laid cold before Christ came and warmed it up with his incredible spirit - God has chosen a different way for you - he has breathed life into you, set you in a safe place, and will put you into a family that loves you intensely.

He has given you life.

and we are the ones he has chosen to share it with you.

My goodness, he is good.

I love you my sweet girl, I pray that you'd laugh today and that your nanny sings you a great song.

Love. Mama.

Two for one!

2011-08-31T10:07:00.000-07:00

While out at an appointment yesterday with Jeff we received a phone call from a very very very excited daughter.

I LOST MY TOOTH. I LOST MY TOOTH. MAMA, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT, THEY JUST FELL OUT!!!

We couldn't believe it, especially when we came home and learned that she didn't just lose one tooth but TWO.

All I could think about was the time I drove down to the beach with Janet and Jenni price. We were listening to George Straight and chatting away when lo and behold, I discovered a little baby tooth inside my baby Georgia's mouth....

Now that tooth is in a baggie.

Wow. Time goes by fast. Seriously fast!

As for the tooth fairy, she delivered a bag of Mario Brothers fruit snacks and .35 cents.

That fairy's a big spender fo show!

Randgen

2011-08-30T11:22:00.000-07:00

This is Randy and Megan. They are married. They live in a very cool loft in good ol' LB. They are our family. They cooked for us on Sunday. We loved it. Our kids went through their flat like wild beasts in the African bush. We tried to blame it on the fact that they did not nap all day. But truthfully, we just need do a better job of training our kids to behave when we go to other people's house. That sucks.

But Randy and Megan. They don't suck. Especially when they serve up iced carmel macchiatos from their new espresso machine & dream with us of flying to Ethiopia next year. We've insisted on them coming and I think they will.

That numbed the pain our kids were inflicting on all of us Sunday night. That, and Yo Gabba Gabba.

Which by the way is the craziest kid show I have ever seen.

Snap shots from San Pedro

2011-08-28T21:33:00.001-07:00

Do you know what San Pedro is to me?... It's like my one place on this earth. When we drive over the bridge and up the hill I feel a tingle in my bones. I think they realize that a small portrait of heaven is just before them and the anticipation of being so close to the thing they long for most is almost too much for them to bear.

And then, when I step up to the edge of the cliff and look out at the vast ocean, my breath is taken from me as I come face to face with my small and finite nature. I get a vivid glimpse into how big God really is - and more than just big, so incredibly clever. The ocean is the most stunning thing he has ever created, I think...

Simply put - I love this place & Here are some snaps from our afternoon.

This very spot used to be a military base - it housed the enormous guns that protected our coast from invaders. This is what's left from that time.

Sucks to be the baby!

2011-08-27T08:44:00.000-07:00

Not sure what's in that bowl. I watched Georgia make up some sort of fruit-sugar-water-with-a-twist kind of drink.

And since no one was game to try it they sought out a weaker opponent.

All I can say is it sucks to be the last in line in this family....

And to be so trusting.

It's official!

2011-08-25T12:07:00.000-07:00

Lord willing, sometime in 2012 Georgia, Jonas, and Henry will officially welcome a new baby sister:

Kate Ever Marshman

We can't seem to wipe the smiles off of our faces! God has truly done a great thing!

We ask that you continue to lift our family up in prayer:

For finances (we've got a big chunk due very soon)

For protection for Kate while we wait for her to legally ours

For MOWA to act speedily

For a court date to be given to us quickly as well.

For the rest of this process to go smoothly - we've officially entered the tricky part of things...

The story with Kate:

The medical report revealed that she is about one month younger than we initially thought - She is about 4-5 months old. She was found on the street by a police officer and taken to the orphanage. They call her Eve (hence her middle name, EVER). She is healthy, alert, and so incredible. Once we can figure out how to password protect photos on here - we will post an image of her.

Until we know more.....

Training days

2011-08-23T20:54:00.000-07:00

Jo Bug's whip cream stash is apparently hilarious...

My sweet baby Jones is becoming quite the stallion these days. He's tough, knows what he wants, doesn't scare easy, and is obsessed with discovering new things.

He also has mastered the tantrum, can scream at the top of his lungs at the drop of a hat, and likes to bite..... Especially Henry.

So as you can imagine, it's been fun around here lately! He adds more volume to our house than I am comfortable with but, I have put on my armor and am ready for the fight.

"And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up." - Galatians 6:9

The Mondays

2011-08-22T17:16:00.000-07:00

Georgia attempting space travel.

We are sort of an aimless mess today. I am not steering the ship so well....

Henry is half naked and spent his whole day peeing in the backyard....

Jonas is covered in chocolate Popsicle and dirt.

And Georgia is shirtless with wild hair - she got ketchup all over her shirt today at lunch thanks to Henry. He thought it would be a good idea to launch his hotdogs dipped in ketchup at her.

I never got around to properly clothing her after the assault.

And now, Jeff is trying so hard to build linking-logs with them - only to have his awesome creations be torn down by Henry the ape. He gets extra wild on days like today. Which brings me to this thought -

I hate days like today.

Bedtime is in a few hours, Jeff is home tomorrow, donuts will be served for breakfast, and I get to start over again - hallelujah!

I need a do-over day.